Such a lovely time

I’ve had a lovely lovely week. My wonderful husband surprised me several times on our anniversary. It felt like being on honeymoon all over again. There was lots of laughter and many tears of happiness. I was very emotional and I appreciated every second. No need to go into details of gifts and experiences but…

Happy happy happy

Today is our 10th wedding anniversary. We have spent the night at the Ritz, been to the theatre and had an amazing breakfast. We are off to lunch at Gordon Ramsey. My fantabulous husband has given me a beautiful diamond necklace. I am living in the moment and I am in ecstasy. It all feels…

Going public

My husband keeps telling me I should publish this blog. To be honest I’m not sure I’m ready. It’s a bit like getting undressed in public. There’s a certain amount I’m not sure I want anyone to see. But that said, it may help people to understand. It may help others going through it. Maybe.…

Ouch

Bone ache. Ouch. A bit like period pains but in my bones and throughout my body. Not pleasant. Better than nausea and chemo brain, but not a walk in the park. Hurry up and go away.

The kindness of strangers

This is a post I’ve been meaning to write for a while. It’s all about the amazing people who I don’t know and yet whose support is helping me get through. I’m a big Facebook user. Don’t have time for any of the other social media sites, but FB has been my “thing” for a…

Grey

Today has been a grey day. The sky has been grey. My jumper is grey. My face is grey. And to be honest I have felt a little grey. Maybe more than a little. I had my first dose of Taxol two says ago. It’s been ok ish. I feel sleepy and weary. I have…

Another year….

Happy birthday to me! 38 years ago today I emerged into the world. 10 years ago today I was preparing for my wedding just a few days away. 1 year ago today I was having a nice day off work. And today I am preparing for my 5th chemo session tomorrow. Don’t get me wrong.…

Musings from the Big White Chair

Some random thoughts as I sit in the Big White Chair waiting for the poison: – This is all a bit shit. – Generally I’ve been feeling upbeat but for some reason today the crap is getting me down. – That said, I know I will bounce back. I hope it’s sooner rather than later.…