Weird
I’ve just shared this blog. People are reading it. It feels a bit weird!
Done D-done done
Yes yes yes. Chemo is done. I am home and, somehow, I am awake. I am happy through the fog. And now it’s on to the next stage. In three days I see the onc for a sign off (I hope) and the surgeon to get the ball rolling on surgery. Today is the day…
DetailsRed carnation day
Today I have earned my chemo red carnation. At Oxford, when you do your exams, you wear a carnation. White for the first, pink for the middle, red for the last. Those people who walk out of Exam Schools with a red carnation get showered with champagne and gifts. You know that you have got…
DetailsContrariness on chemo
Being on chemo is a bit like having PMT in lots of ways. No wonder, as they both mess with your hormones. One of the worst things about this is feeling the opposite of how you (and others) think you should feel. I feel gung-ho about things that would turn others into shivering wrecks –…
DetailsA note on feeling guilty
So much of the time since being diagnosed with BC I have found myself feeling guilty. I know it’s not my fault and I don’t really think the guilt is guilt about being ill. It is guilt about the effects of me being ill on other people. In the spirit of my Top Ten theme,…
DetailsAn encyclopaedia of side effects
Yesterday I got a bit worked up about a chain message in Facebook allegedly in aid of breast cancer awareness. I had a bit of a rant about how pointless it was and listed some of the side effects from chemo that I am experiencing and that the chain message in no way tackled. I…
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Here’s another quick top ten. Top ten best things to eat after chemo: 1. Chocolate 2. White carbs 3. Super fresh and juicy fruit 4. Salty food 5. Pineapple (great for dealing with a manky mouth) 6. Ice cream 7. Cake!! 8. Boiled sweets (same reason as pineapple) 9. Chips 10. Anything you damn well…
DetailsTen things I hate about you
So here are my top ten breast cancer hates. 1. Fatigue/feeling weak. I’m such a doer. I can’t stand being immobilised. I get frustrated and depressed. It’s not easy to just sit back and do nothing. 2. Chemo brain. The only thing that I really value about myself is my intellect. Chemo brain takes this…
DetailsTake these words out of the dictionary!
Here are what I consider to be the 10 worst words in a breast cancer patient’s dictionary: =1. Metastasis. The last thing you want to hear out of a doctor’s mouth unless accompanied by the word “no” or “none” =1. Spread. Same reason. 3. Reoccurrence. What we all fear most after metastasis and what we…
DetailsTop ten people
I know, I know. I’ve posted a lot about the people I love. But you can’t be too grateful. And it makes for a good Top Ten. Don’t hate me if you’re reading this and you’re not in it. That doesn’t mean I don’t love and appreciate you. I do. Very much. But these are…
DetailsNatalie
I just gave my daughter Natalie a goodnight cuddle. She is 6 going on 16 and incredibly stubborn, independent, intelligent and often grumpy. She is also extremely perceptive and caring. She smelt of soap and shampoo and strawberries, and she was almost as soft and warm as the day she arrived in the world, with…
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